Scattered

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When I was small I would catch fireflies.  It was just something we did in the summer evenings.  When I was about 10 we moved away from our home and to somewhere new where there were not any fireflies.  Honestly, this is still strange to me, to be out on a warm evening and not have little lights begin to appear from the ground… I genuinely miss it.

I remember running and catching the little glowing bugs and sticking them into little washed out jam jars lined with grass.  My brother and I would put these jars in our room and use them as a nightlight.  If we remembered we’d dump them into the grass the next morning, in hope that they would find food and glow the next night.  The greatest joy in the experience was catching them and putting them into a jar, or just holding them in our hands, we’d try to catch as many as we could; though they’d often scatter and escape from us.  I don’t blame them.

I have moved from blogger to WordPress, and I hope I don’t regret that choice, since I’m kind of all in at this point.  At least for the next year.  I’ve resisted WordPress for years, I’ve been playing with blogger since blogs were a relatively new thing in the world.  Despite all of the changes over the years it has always felt like home.  I’ve had several peers in the web design world tell me to try WordPress, so here I am.

As the title of the post suggests, this is going to be a rather scattered narrative.  My thoughts, like those fireflies, are flitting this way and that, lighting and dimming in an instant.

It has been 1 year and 2 months since I’ve last posted in a blog.  and that last post was a frustrated announcement about my pregnancy.  I kind of fell off the earth after that post, occasionally I would post something to Facebook or Instagram, and now that I think of it I did do a small post to my art blog plus I attempted the A to Z challenge this last April.  That didn’t go so well.

I’m finally at a point where I’m attempting to do things besides chores and care for kids.  Though that is still the greater portion of my time right now.

So what’s next in life fore me right now?

I’m not sure.  I hate being unsure about anything.

I HOPE that this spring (2018) I’ll be able to enroll in my 3rd to last semester.  I have 3 classes I need to take and I’m hoping I can cram them all together that semester.  At that point I will have a 15 month old, a 5 year old and an 8 year old.  Sure, why not have 9 credit hours worth of ART classes to balance with that.

In the mean time I have to get together a portfolio to apply for the BFA program that same spring.  Wait, what? I thought you already were admitted.  Oh yes, I was.

But then I had a baby…

and I’ve not been to school since the Fall of 2015.

OH and the program admissions changed.  Just like I thought they would.

Thankfully, the classes I have to take have not changed again.  If they had I might have just applied for my BS and just have been done.

I really want to get my BFA, even if it is just a piece of paper.  It’ll represent that I finished the program.  At this point, that is good enough.

For now that is all I’m writing, I was going to write more, but as I said before- my thoughts are winking in and out around me.  I think once I get the hang of writing again I’ll do better.  (Also if I actually make an outline of my blog posts before I start writing, that would help as well.)

~Nikkie/Alicia